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Friday, 09 June 2006

  • so i've decided to write an entry after a long time, seeing as sophmore year is over.  okay soooo reflection on my sophmore year in highschool, i think it was better than freshman year in some ways, but worse in some ways. i loved freshman year for the fact that everything was new, everything was exciting. this year i just skipped a whole bunch of stuff because i was too tired or didn't feel like going.  i wish i coulda done a lot more stuff but i'm just too lazy to make up lies to tell my dad about what i'm doing because he won't let me add any more activities onto my schedule. i've got a pretty okay schedule, i just work slow and procrastinate a lot so i end up sleeing at like 12 AM everyday. yeahh i suppse you can say its my own fault and it is. it's hard to balance homework, study, boyfriend, drama, parent nagging, and my own lack of self control on a daily bases. pretty much my worst weakness. plus i dont have the power to join any activities i want, so that kinda sucks too. so far i have cheer and one dance class (which i often skip) and i did fashion show (which lasted like 2 months of practice). soooo yeah no clubs or anything like that because my dad said i couldn't because my schedule was already too tight. no community service is going to look great for my college application. i tried out for link crew and i got in, so i'm still thinking about what i'm going to tell my dad when i have to go to all those meetings and activities and stuff because i'm not allowed to join anything. even if it looks good for college, nothing looks as good as a high SAT score. so yeah thats why my life will consist of this summer and next year. SAT cramming. for the next 8 months. oh joy. no car to drive around because everytime i drive, my dad feels a need to scream at me from the time i put the key in the engine to the time i get out of the car. yeah it's starting to sound like my dad is a huge root in most of my frustrations, limitations, and problems. well what are ya gonna do about it right? he's my dad.  well overall, i've met some great people this year and learned a lot about people. stepped back from the drama and tried to focus on my schoolwork (at 12AM). i got a B in chem honors last semester but i got straight A's this semester, so i guess i'm doing something that works for me, but i barely got by. i have to work my ass off now! what the heck. this is new to me hahaha. so according to all the upperclassmen, we're about to enter the worst year of our highschool lives. yeahhhhh i've never needed summer more than right now. but i'm trying to live highschool years to the fullest, because its the last time i'm gonna have people looking out for me before i'm on my own, and frankly that scares the shit out of me.

Sunday, 04 December 2005

  • so i haven't updated in like a freaking long time. but this white flight thing article bothers the heck out of me. so i'm using this to vent hahaha. so this white flight article basically says how like the high schools monta vista and lynbrook are "too asian". apparantly the schools put "too much emphasis on math and science and not enough on the liberal arts". but then its like if you think about it, who gets the jobs? are there more job openings for artists or for engineers? yeah the people with the singing and musical talents may become rich and famous, but how many rich and famous people who are artists or are saxaphone playing people are there to engineers or accountants?
    "The white exodus clearly involves race-based presumptions, not all of which are positive. One example: Asian parents are too competitive."
    That quote is portrayed so negatively. asian parents are TOO competitive, or just the right amount of competitive? look at the real world. if you're not competitive you get eaten up. you compete with tons of people when you apply for jobs, when you go to college, everything in life is a competition. if you're not competitive, if you dont strive to win, you think you're gonna get that job? you think you're gonna get into that college? you HAVE to be competitive to make the employers or college admissions person to choose YOU over somebody else. so what is with this "too" competitive. that is complete bullshit. look at the real world and THEN come tell asian people that they're too competitive. sorry if we refuse to live in run down dirty apartments chasing after dreams that may never come true. just because asians are more practical doesn't mean they're bad. it means they'll probably succeed since they actually work and use their brains. plus at lynbrook its not the teachers that are necessarily good, its the students. like i've had TONS of sucky teachers. if i have a good teacher its rare. for example, moilanen for chem honors SUCKS so bad its like not even funny. definitely not funny because her lack of ability to teach affects my grade. but because i WANT that A, i went to mr. peck (another chem honors teacher) to ask him to add me to his A+ board so i could get his notes because people said his are easier to understand. during tutorial i have to go ask OTHER chem teachers to help me, which means i cant spend any time on the homework that i could be spending time on. i have to stay online forever asking a trillion people if they've done the chem hw yet and how they did it. i have to spend all this extra time just because she sucks at teaching. yes i wish she'd go away, yes i wish she'd stop teaching. but in life things are unfair like that and you just have to do what you have to do to get what you want. in this case i want my A. now i dont know if i'm gonna get it and i'm crazy pissed at her, but i have to go out and do things myself to get what i want. so its not necessarily the teachers who push us its really ourselves. this is what people like to see when they hire people in this COMPETITIVE world of ours. would you want people who are willing to go 110% or just 80%?
    "My sense is that at Monta Vista you're competing against the child beside you," she says.

    "Everybody is caught into this process of driving their kids."

    no duh everybody is caught into the process of driving their kids! its called preparing them for the REAL WORLD. and no not the MTV show, the one where you have to look for jobs and pay your bills and go to banks for loans and suck up to your bosses and work hard so you can have money to LIVE. yeah that real world. parents drive their kids so they can perform well. now i'm not saying that there aren't those parents who drive their kids TOO hard like study every night and no going out ever. thats completely insane. but driving kids isn't bad because parents want the best for their kids dont they? yeah you could let your kids do what they want, but if you dont push them to their bests, they're most likely gonna grow up, living in a rundown, yucky place with no money and just trying to get by going WHY DIDN'T YOU PUSH ME TO BE BETTER.

    "On a recent autumn day at Lynbrook, crowds of students spilled out of classrooms for midmorning break. Against a sea of Asian faces, the few white students were easy to pick out. One boy sat on a wall, his lighter hair and skin making him stand out from dozens of others around him. In another corner, four white male students lounged at a picnic table."

    okay that is retarded. the author may think she's describing how there's all asians, but now she's describing how people look and everything its bringing it to the color of people's skin. NOW its like wtf why do you have to bring it to this? lack of skill there "journalist".

    Mr. Rowley, who is white, enrolled his only son, Eddie, at Lynbrook. When Eddie started freshman geometry, the boy was frustrated to learn that many of the Asian students in his class had already taken the course in summer school, Mr. Rowley recalls. That gave them a big leg up.

    just because the asian students took summer school classes just means they're more hardworking. i myself took a chemistry honors preview class in the summer where the teacher went through the entire chemistry honors course in a really short amount of time. we covered 3 weeks worth of material in 3 days. and yeah i sucked like hell in that class i felt so stupid because i didn't get anything. but now that i come to class, its like at least i KINDA grazed over that subject a little, so its not completely foreign. since moilanen is such a sucky teacher and i learn like nothing from her, i can go look back on my notes from summer to see what the freak moilanen is talking about. so SORRY asians want to do well. why dont you MR. ROWLEY. if your son took a summer course he'd be ahead. its not the asian people's fault that they worked to get to where they are today. and its not their fault that some white kid didn't take a class and decided to play baseball or something instead. its not like asians just do it because they love it. i hated my class, and i hated going, but i did it anyways. i WORKED at it. instead of sleeping i had to wake up at like 8 AM 4 days a week to go to class for 2.5 hours. so its not like i'm smart naturally, i think i'm actually pretty stupid. but i took the class because i wanted to not completely fail.

    "As he played soccer, Ms. Doherty watched a line of cars across the street deposit Asian kids for after-school study. She also attended a Monta Vista parents' night and came away worrying about the school's focus on test scores and the big-name colleges its graduates attend."

    its like OH NO LINE OF CARS ACROSS THE STREET DEPOSITING ASIAN KIDS WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE. who cares wtf they're doing across the street! you worry about your soccer game and the asian people across the street going to class will worry about their class. oh yeah the school focus's too much on tests and big name colleges. so what is this crazy woman saying? that she doesn't want her son to go to a big name college and just play soccer forever? thats fine but SOME people actually want to do well in life. excuse the asian people for wanting a higher standard of living.

    okay sorry i'm so opinionated haha but this article just pissed me off. it basically didn't focus on the reason of why we're being pushed, why we want to focus on test scores, why we like big name colleges. we like to live life without having to worry about where our next dollar is going to come from. who DOESN'T want to be successful? asians are just a tad more practical. the odds of becoming an artist and earning a lot of money compared to becoming an engineer and earning a lot of money are way different. i should write an essay on this. i have lots of opinions! yay hope i didn't offend anyone. i dont think anyone read this entire thing anyways haha.

    <3

Tuesday, 04 October 2005

Thursday, 15 September 2005

  • me and marvin talkin bout football...

    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: i heard your team is kinda small
    MISSXBETTZ: really?
    MISSXBETTZ: i cant tell..
    MISSXBETTZ: my cheer team is big though
    MISSXBETTZ: haha
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: like
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: numbers?
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: or...size
    MISSXBETTZ: LOL numbers!
    MISSXBETTZ: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: oh ok
    MISSXBETTZ: thats funny
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: i was like...have fun with those cheerleaders boys
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: i thought you'd have like that girl from dodgeball
    MISSXBETTZ: HAHAHAHAHA
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: well you know
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: when we played against evergreen valley
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: it disgusted our whole team
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: 1/3 of their cheerleaders
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: were bigger than most of our team
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: like one was like
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: 6'3" at probably like 200 lbs

    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: we're playing prospect next week
    MISSXBETTZ: oh haha we're playing gunn i think
    sHoTgLaSsFENDER7: we don't play gunn for a while
    MISSXBETTZ: oh wait
    MISSXBETTZ: me too hehe
    MISSXBETTZ: we play prospect
    MISSXBETTZ: then saratoga
    MISSXBETTZ: THEN santaclara
    MISSXBETTZ: THEN gunn

    HAHAHAHAHAH oh yes i look forward to seeing him at homecoming!

    <3 betty

Sunday, 04 September 2005

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